Fall Is NOT In The Air

It was dark and a little overcast when Hiker woke me up at 6:10 this morning to go potty. I couldn't make up my mind if I wanted to go back to bed and sleep until 8:00 am or get up at 7:00 am and go for a walk with Hiker. The walk won out. Had thought about driving over to a different area of town to walk this morning, but then changed my mind and we walked down through Discovery Park as usual, but instead of doing our norm 1.5 mile walk, we did a 2 mile walk this morning. I keep hoping my back is not going to go out on me. I have been having this pain in the lower left side for a couple of days and usually when I have that, my back goes out for 3 or 4 days. So here it is the first day of Fall. It should be cooler but here in SoCal, we are still in the 90's. I have not cried for Ben for quite awhile but today, I am really feeling lonely for him. I keep thinking of things we used to do together and places we used to go together and the memories keep coming back to me. I'm not really crying like I did before, but I've been going around all day with tears in my eyes.