I find that the older I get that the morning after I do a longer walk or hike that I wake up feeling like crap. I'm tired and my body aches. I do feel much better once I'm up, dressed and moving around. Just goes to show how out of shape I have gotten, or as I said, it is because I'm getting older. I choose to think that it's that I'm out of shape and really need to get back into shape. I know I've been gaining weight and even though 8 years ago, I was able to take control of my eating and go from 205 lbs down to 150 lbs, I just do not seem to have the same self control I had back then about my portions of food. I know I eat too much and I know that deep down I can lose the weight again, but it's as if I just don't have the will power anymore. Makes me mad at myself. Plus I don't get out and walk or hike as much as I did before. I've become a couch potato. Well, tomorrow I'll be going to Ventura with my friends Judy and Jean and we will be walking around, but that kind of walking is not as good as power walking and hiking. On Thursday, Hiker and I will be going on a hike with my friend RuthAnne over in Placerita Canyon, so that will be good. I need to start getting up off the couch and go more and I need to start eating less. I need to take control again! Went to my grief support group today. Our therapist had asked us to bring in photographs of our spouses. A few of us did and it was nice to be able to put faces with the people we've talked about with our members. Five of us went to Jimmy Dean's for lunch after our group session.