Saturday, October 1, 2011
Sad On Saturday
“No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear” - C. S. Lewis
Here it is October. I thought that maybe by now I would have been doing a little better in my grieving process but I seem to cry more now than I did before. I guess it's true what they say...the 3rd to 6th month of widowhood is a tough time. Did not get to sleep until almost 2:00 am again. Stayed in bed this morning until around 8:00 am. Had breakfast and then headed over to The Dollar Tree to pick up a few items and then went next door to Big Lots and picked up an 8GB HP Flashdrive for $10. I store my photos on the flashdrives. I decided to get my small suitcase down from the shelf over my bedroom closet. It was inside of the huge suitcase that Ben and I had and that we always used together when we went to Ferndale on vacations. It was big enough to hold clothes for both of us for at least a week. When I brought it down, I realized that Ben and I would never use it again and I started sobbing. It's way too big for just me so I've decided to give it to Good Will. The TV weather people had been talking all week that today was supposed to be cooler here and that we would have a chance of rain but it was bright and sunny and in the high 90's. Don't know where they got their weather forecast.