Friday, November 18, 2011

It Was A Cloudy A Cold Afternoon.....

Got up around the normal time this morning, fed Hiker put her out for potty and then put a load of laundry into the washer. Hiker wanted to go for a walk right away, but I made her wait until after I put the laundry into the dryer. I drove us over to Central Park in Saugus, CA and we did a 1.8 mile walk around the park. There is a dog park there, so there are always a lot of dogs. I won't let her play in the dog park because I'm afraid to let her off leash except in her own backyard. I had one guy ask me if she had some Doberman in her because he said her head and face looked like a Doberman. Came back home and made a quick trip to the bank to cash a check and get a little cash. Almost had some tears while I was out walking, but was actually able to restrain them. I've noticed that sometimes I now just get a little moisture in my eyes instead of actually crying. I still do get hit now and then with one of those sobbing attacks, but they are fewer and farther between now. I put together a meatloaf to cook for dinner tonight. Ben used to love my meatloaf and I have not made one since he went into the hospital last February. I have just not been able to bring myself to make one until now, plus it's been so long since I've been hungry enough or “sane” enough to actually plan any “real” meals. I'm hoping that one of these days I'll be able to plan weekly meals every Sunday like Ben and I used to do so that I will always know what I'm going to have for dinner. It started getting cloudy and breezy around noon. They are saying that we might get some more rain this weekend and they are saying we may get rain on Thanksgiving Day. My gardener came a day early to mow the lawn. He said he was off from his regular job so he thought he'd get some of the yards done today before the rain comes. I spoke with him about thinning out my shade tree in the backyard. It's getting really thick and I'm afraid a big wind might blow it over. Then I talked with Linda on the phone. She was over at Wal-Mart looking for a new computer router and was asking my advice on which one to get.


  1. Ok so how do you know Hiker wants to go for a walk? That is cute. We love meatloaf here! Katy has that as one of her favorite dishes of mine that I make. I am amazed anyone would favor my cooking though. I know that it must be hard to do anything that reminds you of Ben. I just cannot imagine all you have been through.

  2. What you are saying about having less sobbing episodes,is exactly what I experienced after about 5-6 months. It does get better,not that the pain goes away completely,but better.

  3. It is great to hear that you are slowly making progress back into life. You are going places, doing chores and cooking proper meals again. All very positive. Well done Kay. The meatloaf sounds yummy.

  4. Hi Kay, thanks for stopping by my corner of the world. So sorry to hear about Ben's passing. It's good that you are able to get out and walk and enjoy the weather. Walking has a way of soothing the soul. I am still tending to a sprained ankle so can't walk at the moment and am missing it. Our weather is finally getting more Fall-like. Most of the year is so, so hot! Hope you have a good weekend. Take care! Best wishes, Tammy


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