Thursday, May 24, 2012

Been Having Some Flashbacks

Beautiful morning here when Hiker and I woke up. It had been pretty windy all night. Hiker would bark when she heard some of the large gusts. She sure is a good watch dog. We went for a 2 mile walk this morning since it was a little cooler than it has been for the past few mornings. Hiker saw here 2 duck friends in the ditch near our community gate. She sat down for a few minutes and watched them swimming around. I am finding that the closer it gets to the first anniversary of Ben's passing that the tears are starting to flow again. I keep having flashbacks of going to the hospital every day to visit him, but I'm also having flashbacks of vacations he and I took to northern California. I keep thinking about “our” places that we loved to go to together. I can hardly believe that he has not physically been in this house for almost a year and a half. I feel him here with me spiritually every day. My brother Keith is coming to visit me and Hiker for the Holiday weekend. It will be nice to have someone here to talk to in the evenings. I really miss not having Ben here to talk to when we'd settle down for the evening after dinner. Did not get as hot today as it has been. Temp topped out at right around 78° and it was breezy all day. We went for another short walk, about a mile round-trip. Even though the temperature was lower, it was still hot in the direct sun.

1 comment:

  1. I too had a harder time as the anniversary of Jake's passing came. I think this may always be a hard time.


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