Was hoping I'd feel much better today, but I didn't. I was really feeling pretty good by the time I went to bed last night at 11:00 pm. I actually started feeling better late yesterday afternoon. I watched “The Closer” and “Rizzoli & Isles” and then hit the sheets, but I was wide awake and did not fall asleep until around 1:45 am. When I woke up around 6:00 am, I felt very weak so stayed in bed until around 8:00 and then got up and moved to the living room sofa. Was supposed to go to my grief group today, but knew I would not be able to drive, so didn't go. Poor Hiker. She wanted to go out for a walk so badly, she didn't know what to do with herself. Hopefully I'll be better soon. I'm supposed to go out to lunch with some friends tomorrow, plus I need to get to the market to get some groceries. I have chicken and ground beef in the freezer, along with some fish and some ham, but I'm getting to where I just don't know what to fix for meals. I never was much into cooking. I know I need to eat to get stronger. Hiker tried to occupy herself by playing with “Blue Toy”. I just feel so sorry for her because she does not understand. Up until now, I would take her for walks every day and go out in the yard and play ball with her. For the past 2 days, she just sits and watches me. She doesn't even want to go outside by herself to play. She barks at the door and I open it for her, then she just looks up at me like she's asking “why won't you come outside and play with me”? Most of the day she sat in Ben's chair and just stared at me.