Monday, September 12, 2011
Monday With My Friends The Meggitts
“They that love beyond the world cannot be separated by it. Death cannot kill what never dies”~William Penn
I went to bed exhausted last night due to having a bad evening thinking about Ben and crying. I had not had a "sobbing" cry in quite awhile, had one last night. I've been thinking about my brother Keith and I going to northern California to visit our older brother Ron. I remember when we used to go and Ben would stay home, I'd be OK for the first 2 days or so and then I would start missing Ben so much. I called him several times every day while I was up there and I remember how on the drive coming home, I could not wait to get home and get a big hug from Ben. I just realized that if Keith and I get to go up to see Ron in a few weeks that Ben will not be here when I get home to give me that hug. I've been going to sleep a little earlier now, but I dream a lot and I wake up several times during the night so I'm still not getting good sleep. My friends Karren & Wally Meggitt came by a little after noon and took me to lunch at Dink's New York Deli over at the local mall. It was so nice to see them. I had not seen them since March when Ben was in the hospital and Karren stayed with me a few nights. We came back to my house after lunch and sat and talked about Ben and I showed them the slide show of photos I have of him before they had to head back home. Of course, once they left, the loneliness of the empty house set in again, but all in all, it was not too bad of a day.